Do I Open It -- (Author) Cmgaby
Do I Open It -- (Author) Cmgaby
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Author: Cmgaby
Timestamp: Feb 11, 2022 at 2:43 AM
Content: As I sit here, I can't help but to feel relieved. I told the last person on earth I trusted that I was an AB/DL. There is alot to the story!
A) I have known this person since elementary school. 5th grade ish
B) She is the one. Off and on through the years we would see each other but never stayed with each other longer than a cpl hrs.
C) Carrier driven, and beautiful, mind and otherwise.
D) First thing she said before we even saw each other this last time was "I'm not Babying anyone. "
Well this isn't going to remotely work I thought to myself.
So it got to the point to where she was done with school finally and looking to buy a house. I was trying to get out of a toxic relationship and going through other mental battles as well. Work, family, relationships. Stressed out was not the phrase.
She wanted me to be there at her house at first. Offered me a key twice she kept to the friends just friends. She couldn't figure out why I hadn't engaged in any sexual acts or even brought it up. I wouldn't even joke about it.
We ended up in Florida at Universal for Harry Potter world. Now in my head at Harry Potter world, "I'm Melted" and she was having a decent time. We both wanted the whole outfits Dress Robes and wands. We drank butter beer and eat from all the restaurants and road the train. Stayed at the Ocean side resort. I asked her overall if she had a good trip with me and she said uh over all ya!
So after that a normal move would be to engage in intimate conversations. And I backed off untill the other day when I sent her a letter outlining how my mind can work. "AB/DL"
Now there is a txt on my phone I'm afraid to look at.
I cryed my eyes out the past 2 days. I'm in my happy place in the world, "Dave Chapelled it for today" middle of know where with my cammie hoodie and mega max to keep me going until I ha e to go to work in am.
She always gets pissed at me because she says I assume to much. Well my assumption of what's in that txt is hopefully of at least understanding. The respect I have for her to tell her and not keep her waiting or wondering what went wrong. If it was her or me.
Im stuck in limbo
I KNOW I HAVE TO READ IT...i just don't want to face the rejection. Even if I was trying to have any type of relationship with her. Now her whole view of me will forever be changed. I knew when I sent the letter she would never view me as a prince in her eyes ever again.
She deserved to know!
Now I have to is get my nerves up
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Author: Cmgaby
Timestamp: Feb 12, 2022 at 12:19 PM
Content: UPDATE
So I opened the txt finally,
I got Bravery points for telling her and she understood the fetish, kink life. Saw how I acted around her and how my little side could come out around her. Since I have trouble blurring / crossing the line we could be friends still but not romantic. Eventually she said even if we tried to keep it separate it would come out and she couldn't be a part of it. Or ever wanted to hear adout it. And my little side was why she got mad at me so easily. She thought I was blaming her for not having a good time at Harry Potter world cuz I couldn't be little.
My Reply
"I'm not blaming you for anything.
I beat myself up over it.
I enjoyed every second of Florida.
I just wanted to remember what we were like together before I told you.
But It wasn't right for me not to tell you. Everything "
I understand were she is comming from. That's why I told her. I'm not trying to make her unhappy. Im sure she had heard rumors from an ex girlfriend or something about my Little side.
It makes me think she wanted to go to Harry Potter World just to see if she could get my little side to come out around her.
Like she had been thinking about this for years same as I had. I apparently passed all the test except Harry Potter World! Well its official I definitely belong here.
But It also makes me think she had some sort of past experience with an AB/DL that didn't go well.
Either way now that I told her I feel relieved. I can talk to her without feeling so nervous. Or at least think about the whole sitchuation a little more clearly. I think now that I layed out a manual about myself I'm going to see if she would answer some questions for me.
Did She want to test me at Harry Potter world?
Did she know or at least have an idea before we went?
Or would she still go to the New Harry Potter movie with me? Hahahaha
Then other more personal questions of course without trying to upset her.
I'm glad I started with AB/DL kink. That's where I'm the most happy-go-lucky person. I don't know if I should try to explain that this is only one of many kinks I have. Or let sleeping dogs lay untill valintines day is over?