Scared to be alone -- (Author) Peepeegirl

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Author: Peepeegirl
Timestamp: May 21, 2020 at 9:46 PM
Content: Once upon a time was a girl who lived with her mom and boyfriend, but they were really abusive, her aunt saw what was going on and decided to get her.
Olivia was so happy she was turning 10 and thought now I will be like any other girl.
Her ant prepared a beautiful room for her, she had never been so happy, she had diner with her family, watched tv things she have had never done before she felt like she was in heaven.
She went to bed got a really nice stuffie to hug, and slept deeply like she had never before, but when she woke up she felt something, she was wet and so was her bed, she started crying, and her aunt come
- What is wrong baby girl?
- you are going to send me back aren’t you, I have been I bad girl. Olivia continued sobbing
- No Olivia I am not sending you home just tell what happened??
Olivia took of her cover and her aunt saw what had happened , her aunt laughed, Olivia, started crying again
- see now you are making fun of me.
- No baby I just thought how silly it was that you thought I was going to send you away only because you wet the bed. Don’t worry about, go get yourself clean up and I fix things here.
- Aunt Bae , can please not tell anyone.
- Okay
— Pink promise?
- yes dear now go clean yourself.
Olivia was scared that her cousins would make fun of her, well she clean herself, and was really careful she didn’t want add a potty accident with the bed wetting.
At night she was scared again, but her aunt calm her down, but the same thin happened for the whole week she was so scared she could not trust that her aunt would not abandon her....
ps English is not my first language so I am sorry for mistakes.

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Author: Peepeegirl
Timestamp: May 29, 2020 at 12:08 AM
Content: After a whole week of accidents aunt Bae said she want to talk to Olivia, she was freaking out and she was sure that her aunt was going to ask her to leave.
- Olivia come here please.
Olivia started to cry already
- I am sorry I promise I will try harder please don’t make me go.
- Calm down baby I didn’t come here to ask you to go, I just want to talk
- Okay.
- I want you to be honest with me okay I won’t be mad. Did have this problem before?
- Yes. Olivia said crying again.
- How long is this happening, or you have never stopped wetting your bed.
- I did stop when I was potty trained.
- Okay so when did come back?
- I was around 7 when mom brought Bob home, and then he started to come to my bed when mom was sleeping, one day I wet the bed it was an accident, but I notice that he would not come to my bed, so from that day on I decided that I would always wet my bed, I used to drink a lot of water, and would wet my bed, mom would get very mad but I never stopped because I didn’t want any of mom’s boyfriend coming to my bed.
- Oh dear I knew they weren’t nice with but I didn’t know that was that bad.
- But I always thought that wetting the bed was my choice and that I would stop when I came live with you. I promise I am not doing on purpose I don’t want to wet my bed, I don’t want you to be mad at me.
- I am not mad baby, and I know you don’t like this too , who would like to wake up all wet, that is why I wanted to talk to you. I bought some diapers so you wouldn’t have to be wet and it would be easy for me with the clean up too.
- Do you think I am a baby, but I am not a baby, I will try harder please.
- Honey I know you have been trying and I believe you will get there, and I know for sure you are not a baby, you have faced so many things alone and found ways to fight, I just want things to be easier for both of us that is all.
- will you tell Mat and Dave, they will tease me.
- I won’t tell anyone, this will be our secret okay, and this way is even harder for them to find out no more bedsheets in the laundry everyday it less suspicious.
-Okay then.
So the next night came to Olivia’s room and taught her how to put her diaper.
The next morning Olivia woke up and she was dry, but when she got up she felt the heavy of her wet diaper and she wasn’t so happy anymore, she cleaned herself and went to school. It was like this for the whole week again Olivia was really disappointed with herself, and thought she was never be a normal girl, what was she thinking that moving to her aunt’s house and suddenly she would be a normal girl how pathetic. As the month went by Aunt Bae could see that she was not okay.
They decided that would be a good idea for her to see a therapist, she started and suddenly she started wetting herself during the day, she was luck that started only when summer vacation started. Bae questioned the therapist and she said that the regression was not uncommon, Olivia has been bottling up all this feelings and when she started therapy it came out so she is going through a lot, but it part of the process. Bae was relieved but that didn’t help Olivia now she was even more scared that they would find out that she was not normal, because let’s be real 10 years old do not wet themselves.
The next afternoon when Bae got home she found Olivia all curled up sucking her thumb while watching tv with her cousins. Bae call her, and she started to cry because she realized that she wet herself .
- it’s okay baby I just want you to come here.
-I can’t she shouted
Everyone stared at her, and she shouted again
- stop looking at me
Aunt Bae sensed that something was wrong, so she asked the boys to go play outside and went to Olivia.
- Okay baby tell me what is wrong.
Olivia started to cry
- I am sorry I will try harder I am really sorry.
- Well we shouldn’t shout like you did, but something must be bothering you so let’s start with that.
- I am sorry, I didn’t even realized that i was wet until you call me then I freaked out everyone would know what a freak I am. I don’t wanna anybody to know, maybe I should lock myself in my room I don’t deserve being around people I can’t trust myself.
- You can’t lock yourself you are a child is summer you should be playing, what if you wear pull ups you can go to the bathroom but you are also safe if you have an accident.
Olivia thought about it but she decided to accept the offer at least she would be safe because she was almost got caught.
The next morning aunt Bae had a box of pull ups for Olivia, she was a little hesitant but she put on with some bag clothes. As she was watching TV when she started wetting herself but she realized when she was midstream but the feeling, the warmth she felt made her feel safe in a way that she had never felt before, she was glad that she wore the pull ups and decided to pee on it since she had them.
Aunt Bae noticed that her mood was improving but not the regression, so she decided to talk with her therapist again, the therapist said that she has been talking more and she is feeling safe, and it was okay if we let things go like this for a while, she explained that probably the only time ir her life that she felt safe it was when she was a baby that is why this was making her feel safe, and that Olivia may even ask for baby things and that those things right now was important to her.
Bae was a little confused, but who was she to question.
In the next week she went to Toy r Us with the children each one was allowed of a summer treat, so they started walking around to decided what to get and when Olivia got to the baby section she wanted a pacifier and a bottle really bad. She called aunt Bae and whispered to her ears
- I want a bottle and a bink.
- for your doll asked aunt Bae
Olivia had forgotten that she was holding a baby doll that she chose before.
- No for me, I feel like I really need them but it has to be a secret like the other thing.
Bae thought about what the therapist had said, and decided to get it without the boys seeing.
When she got home she look at Bae with a big eyes .
- Okay go to your room I am coming soon. Said Bae
Olivia went to her room opened up her doll when she realized she had a wet pull up, since she was going to stay upstairs so she could enjoy her new things she decided to put a diaper so she could wet more than one time.
When Aunt Bae open the door she saw a little girl hugging a doll. She had a bottle in one hand and a clean pacifier in another.
- Honey we need to be careful so this can be our secret so you can only use this in your room but you are also not allowed to stay here all day I know this is important to you but you are also a big girl so you have to do big girls things. I will put a movie on the iPad when the movie is over secret time is over.
-Deal !!
Bae hand her the warm bottle kissed her forehead and before leaving the room she said
- I love you
Olivia enjoyed her time and but when it was done she changed her diaper to a pull up and went downstairs with everybody.
And as the month went by she would play like a big girl but in the afternoon she would have her secret time.
Bae was a little scared but could see the improvement on Olivia’s mood.
Olivia was still wearing the pull ups but the accidents wasn’t that bad anymore she still wet because she liked but she did because she enjoyed, even at night her accidents was becoming lower but she would wet when she would up laying in her bed with her pacifier she loved the warmth and the feeling of her diaper swollening.
But one day her mom came as soon as she saw her she wet herself, run to her room went under the cover hugged her doll and start sucking her pacifier.
Bae went outside to see what was going on when she saw Olivia running like that, she was surprised to see her sister, she could see that she was drunk, she send the boys to play with the neighbors, she was able to put some sense in her sister head and she left.
Bae was going upstairs to talk to Olivia but she knew how her mood would be so she decided to make a bottle before going up. As she got to her room she could see she was under the blankets, she took of the blanket and and saw Olivia and saw how she was feeling a helpless little girl.
She got her closed to her and fed her with the bottle when she finished, she sat on her aunt’s lab and hugged her and started crying. Olivia felt loved and understood in a way she had never felt before and as she was calming down, she said
- Aunt Bae I love you, thanks for taking such good care of me.
-I love you too baby girl.
After Olivia was calmer she felt that her pull up was wet
-I think you went yourself honey you better change before you have another accident, I don’t think this pull up can handle another wet.
Olivia said
- I got scared when I saw my mom that is why I wet myself.
- It is okay honey I know you still have a lot of accidents.
- please don’t be mad aunt Bae, but we have a secret, but I don’t want to keep a secret from you, but you have to promise not to be mad.
- I promise
- Well the number of accidents that I have is lower now.
-But you have been going through you pulls ups like the beginning of the summer??
- I know, I wet on purpose sometimes the warmth makes me feel safe like a mini bubble bath.
- Oh
- you are mad I can see I am sorry I will stop I will wear only for my accidents please don’t be mad
- Olivia I am not mad a little confused but not mad, I see how her mood had improved but I was worried that the accidents was not improving, so in part I am relieved.
- So you are not mad, right?
- No not mad, and I know how important this is for you but I was worried how would be when school started again, if you would be able to change yourself all the time without being caught. This way you won’t need.
-Well I still have accidents sometimes I don’t know if I am ready to go to school on panties.
- I have an idea we can keep an accident journal every time you have a accident we make a x this way we can see your improvements.
- Okay, but then you won’t buy diapers for me anymore will you??
- I won’t, first of I know you still need them for night time.
- Well I also got some dry nights.
- that’s is great you can make a nighttime journal too, and I won’t stop buying at least for now, I know in a way or another you still need them. But you have to be honest okay?
- Deal
It was the last week of summer vacation, Olivia was still a little shaken up about everything, so she wet the bed every night but she loved waking up while wetting her diaper or in a wet diaper. But only two accidents during the day.
Bae talked to the therapist and she said that was really good the way they we’re dealing with everything, that she could see a lot of improvement in Olivia.
On the weekend before school started Bae called Olivia.
-Olivia we need to talk.
- Okay
- School will start next week so we are have to change some things here okay?
- You are going to make me stopped won’t you?
- No I know it is important to you but I also know that you want be normal, is something you said to me many times since you came to live with me.
-That’s is true.
- Well so here is the deal, you can still wear the pull up to school until you feel safe enough to stop, at home you get to wet this pull up if you decide.
-Okay.
- Your secret time is going to change a little too, you and the boys will have homework extra activities so it won’t work like it is now the boys bed time is 8:00 pm so I we will said that is your bed time too and you go to your room for secret time I will tuck the boys in and after I will make your bottle and tuck you in too, sounds good?
-Yes it does.
- So you get one pull up a day that can be wet at home unless is an accident, and secret time at bedtime, I don’t mind if you are wet or not but you have to be honest in a journal.
- deal.
School started and everything was working fine, in the first month she had only three day time accidents, but wet almost everynight, on the second month there was no more day accidents and the night ones were not every night anymore after three months Olivia decided not to wear pull ups anymore, she told her aunt
- Aunt Bae I think I am ready to go to school without pull up but I don’t wanna loose my pull up to wet at home.
- I am really proud of you, and we had a deal one pull up a day that does not change anything.
After some time the night time accidents were gone too the therapist said she didn’t need her anymore, she saw that Olivia was doing school and feeling secure and loved. With that Olivia was scared that secret time was going to be over.
So she started having accidents at night again, Bae was worried so she decided to talk with Olivia
- Honey what happened you were doing so good why are you having accidents again, I don’t mind I just want you to feel safe.
- well I was scared that since I am done with therapy you would not let me have secret time anymore.
- Were they really accidents honey, we said that I didn’t care if the diaper was wet or not but you have to be honest about the accidents.
- I am I swear I think I got scared that is all
- I won’t stop secret time until you say you want too.
The next day at secret time Bae went upstairs with a new bottle and a new pacifier.
- Surprise for Liv
Olivia was really happy, Bae fed her before bedtime and said
- liv you have to understand that I love you and I will do everything you need to feel happy and safe, because I love you.
At that moment Olivia feel loved secured and accepted.
The end

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Author: Peepeegirl
Timestamp: Jun 2, 2020 at 12:59 PM
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Mman said:

I really liked this story for what it was. While it had some flaws I can tell you really did try your hardest! Good job!

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Author: Peepeegirl
Timestamp: Jun 24, 2020 at 12:25 AM
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BabySkye75 said:

Such a wonderful story, it kinda made me tear up a little

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