Secret Desires
SECRET DESIRES
I'm going to stay anonymous. But after following many ABDL pages for years I wanted to share my story. I am 22 years old and a pretty average guy. But like many who follow this page I enjoy wearing diapers and using them.
This all started when I was young. I was a late bloomer and wasn't potty trained until I was 4 1/2. I have vague memories of being in diapers and my parents being very frustrated that I was still peeing and pooping my pants.
Once I finally potty trained I had normal accidents but I was notorious for being in trouble for not wiping and leaving stains in my underwear. On two occasions I can remember almost being put back in diapers and I was hoping it would have happened.
The first accident was when I was 7. I had pooped in my bed and my parents were going to put me in a diaper because I ruined my sheets. I remained in underwear which made me both happy because I didn't want to be made fun of and sad because I wanted to wear diapers.
The second accident happened when I was 9 years old. I wet my pants on vacation and my dad suggested that we stop at a store and pick up a pack of diapers for me to wear because we had dinner reservations and didn't have time to go back to change my underwear.
I was very embarrassed and my older sister was making fun of me so my mom said no and we went to the hotel so I could change into underwear.
For the next few years it wasn't really something I thought about until I was at a friend's house for his birthday party. Another friend found a used Goodnite pull-up under the bed. My friend denied it was his but we all knew. After that I started to think about faking wetting the bed and having the urge to wear diapers.
When I was 12, I was trusted to stay home alone. I would surf the internet and found many pages about ABDL's and became curious. There were so many stories. Some true and some fictional about being put back into diapers and I wished that it could be a reality.
When I was 15, I got my hands on some store brand adult pull-up's and tried them on. I was in love with the feeling as I wet the diaper. It wasn't until I was 19 and had my own job that I bought diapers. I purchased a sample of ABUniverse Cushies and Super Dry Kids diapers.
The ABU diapers brought back memories of the plastic diapers I remember wearing when I was 4 1/2. I continued to buy, use and hide diapers until I moved out on my own. It was hard to hide my secret and I almost got caught a few times.
When my girlfriend and I moved in together I wanted so bad to tell her about my enjoyment of wearing diapers but was afraid and ashamed at my desires. I tried to quit wearing cold turkey but got the urge to wear and bought a package of North Shore diapers.
I have so much shame because of my desires and wish that I didn't like wearing or using diapers. Most people around me would think I was a freak and it bothers me. Just needed to get it off my chest and figured this was best because I always enjoy reading the ABDL stories on the internet and always wish most of them would come true. Thanks for reading.
Written By: Anonymous
Age: 22